is there ever a point in your life where nothing bad matters anymore and you can just stay lost in the happiness of a moment?
So many things have happened lately. A lot of them have scared me. I find myself crying more again but sometimes just for no reason. It seems like life is never fair to the people who deserve the best. Why do the good ones always get cheated?
I moved last Thursday. I'm excited to be in a new house, but im terrified of change. I wish I was still in the same house and everything was just the same as it always was.
The best friend I've EVER had moved last Tuesday. I cried so much. I never realized that I regret so much in my life. I guess the saying is right that says "You dont know what you've got till it's gone."
Thought my tears would never end last Sunday. It's hard not to be scared anymore. It seems like everyday that goes by, I'm even more scared. I'm still totally messed up over it. Probably will be for a while. Nothing hurts more than having the only thing that matters in your life almost getting completly taken away. What do you do if it does get taken away? I wouldnt be able to live.
Some things arent the way they seem. You think you know the way something is supposed to be but sometimes someone or something can just pull something out of their ass thats totally crazy. I guess that relates to a lot of things lately. I dont even know what I'm thinking anymore. Everything just seems so blurry and so scary.
Theres only ONE thing I have left in my life that matters.
I LOVE DORIAN WITH ALL MY HEART!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
over a half a year of happiness....a life time of the most phenominal feelings anyone could ever imagine.
<3 Meg |